been reading your work a long time. Your writing now is so good. Hope you turn it into a book. As usual, your adversity and pain are the raw material you craft into compelling narratives. Going through somewhat similar stuff myself. Thank you!
This has got to be the hardest thing ever: "The point is to find the courage to live in the world as it is." I've always lived trying to change things, now can I accept them? I cling to wanting/needing a sense of agency over it all...
I struggle with this so much. It's one of my deepest ingrained personality traits. I crave a sense of security and agency, and will do everything I can to prepare for any scenario I can imagine. That way, when the fire comes, I'm ready.
I also want to believe that the right actions will help move the needle toward a more equitable world, but in my lifetime, that needle has only gone one direction. How much more energy should we spend tilting at windmills? Because all I have to show for it is a growing yet unfocused anxiety that spreads like a sticky film over the more difficult understanding that very little in this life is within our control.
This is why I am working toward acceptance, that all is impermanent but life is still beautiful and the one thing we can control — our values — is where we should focus our energy.
Thank you! The walking has been so extremely frustrating ... like 1-year-olds can do this, why can't I? But assuming I get over this hump, I will have new, strong appreciation for all of the simple things my body can do that I always took for granted.
I can relate to your experience of being able to sit and gaze instead of the grueling run. At these beautiful views! Perhaps this feeling will at least partially compensate for your suffering...
I will say that being largely stuck at home with this injury has made me appreciate my surroundings in a way I haven't before. Sure, Boulder is a uniquely beautiful place, but it's true that we start to take everything for granted. I've been seeing my home with new eyes, and it's lovely.
been reading your work a long time. Your writing now is so good. Hope you turn it into a book. As usual, your adversity and pain are the raw material you craft into compelling narratives. Going through somewhat similar stuff myself. Thank you!
Thank you!
This has got to be the hardest thing ever: "The point is to find the courage to live in the world as it is." I've always lived trying to change things, now can I accept them? I cling to wanting/needing a sense of agency over it all...
I struggle with this so much. It's one of my deepest ingrained personality traits. I crave a sense of security and agency, and will do everything I can to prepare for any scenario I can imagine. That way, when the fire comes, I'm ready.
I also want to believe that the right actions will help move the needle toward a more equitable world, but in my lifetime, that needle has only gone one direction. How much more energy should we spend tilting at windmills? Because all I have to show for it is a growing yet unfocused anxiety that spreads like a sticky film over the more difficult understanding that very little in this life is within our control.
This is why I am working toward acceptance, that all is impermanent but life is still beautiful and the one thing we can control — our values — is where we should focus our energy.
If you don't already have it on your list, I can recommend Walk This World by Heather Nova.
I remember this one! Another that I'm not sure I've thought about in 30 years. Good memories associated with this song. Thanks for sharing.
Beautiful ending. Hopeful, despite all the shit going on.
And hummingbirds..! They really are just “wow” aren’t they.
Congrats on lumbering walking. That’s progress. Well done.
Thank you! The walking has been so extremely frustrating ... like 1-year-olds can do this, why can't I? But assuming I get over this hump, I will have new, strong appreciation for all of the simple things my body can do that I always took for granted.
There’s always a silver lining. ☺️
I can relate to your experience of being able to sit and gaze instead of the grueling run. At these beautiful views! Perhaps this feeling will at least partially compensate for your suffering...
I will say that being largely stuck at home with this injury has made me appreciate my surroundings in a way I haven't before. Sure, Boulder is a uniquely beautiful place, but it's true that we start to take everything for granted. I've been seeing my home with new eyes, and it's lovely.